There's a reason why I never make friends with people of the mortal coil. Mainly because they always end up, well... hitting the length of their mortality. And then they're gone. It's not like in comic books where someone just shows up a few months later and everything goes back to normal. They are gone forever.
I learned this early on. I remember someone taking care of me as a child. Being kind to me and teaching me as I grew and then one day they were just gone and I was alone again like before. I was born, which in my species is not common. From my understanding and brief exchanges with others there were very few of us who could actually reproduce and I never new my parents.
Then there's Eric. Sweet Eric. He was gone as well and it seemed far too soon. I even watched over him his whole life and he was gone. Same thing happened with his children, and his chidrens' children and so forth.
Jessie. Darling Jessie is gone now as well. I don't blame anyone but the tall one fr her death but still, even when I am hit hard I don't fall. Human's are strong but they are also fragile. Mostly in the sense that what they are going up against is a monster.
Konaa faced it down like it was a dragon to be slain, but his bravery was only knocked down by a snake in a person's skin. Konaa fought hard and he fought for a long time and his bravery and determination was probably ten times that of most who I have seen try to face down the face less one. He really was like an anime character.
But so swiftly he was taken from us, and even I feel a bit of loss because of it.
So I think of Melissa and what could become of her defying all those who wish to take her freedom from her. Just how long does she have before she's lost and I can't ever see her again?
Oh well... I'll try and find a way...
Carry on
XOXO
I wish there was something I could dislike about all of you.
But there is nothing I can find.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Jessie
Our dear Jessie is gone and I'll try and honor her as best I can with these clumsy words.
Jessie only stayed with me a week... but it was one of the most wonderful weeks of my life. In the strange bundle of confusion I call my memories it is one that I'm sure will stand out.
Jessie didn't judge me. Jessie didn't question what I was or what I did. She was kind and wanted nothing more than to make someone happy and she succeeded with me. A short girl with tan skin and long long hair pulled back into those braids.
She had a smile that could light up a room and tears that could tear down walls.
Jessie was much more than she appeared to be and she never deserved anything that happened to her. I don't blame David for anything. I don't blame Jessie for wanting this. I only wish that she's at peace now.
I'm not one to talk about religion or the afterlife but I'd like to believe that fore people like Jessie. People who are good and full of nothing but love; I hope they only get what they wish for in death that they could not have in life.
I will always remember her and as always I will move on. Tonight, however, I will keep my thoughts of her close.
It is the least I could do...
Carry on.
XOXO
Jessie only stayed with me a week... but it was one of the most wonderful weeks of my life. In the strange bundle of confusion I call my memories it is one that I'm sure will stand out.
Jessie didn't judge me. Jessie didn't question what I was or what I did. She was kind and wanted nothing more than to make someone happy and she succeeded with me. A short girl with tan skin and long long hair pulled back into those braids.
She had a smile that could light up a room and tears that could tear down walls.
Jessie was much more than she appeared to be and she never deserved anything that happened to her. I don't blame David for anything. I don't blame Jessie for wanting this. I only wish that she's at peace now.
I'm not one to talk about religion or the afterlife but I'd like to believe that fore people like Jessie. People who are good and full of nothing but love; I hope they only get what they wish for in death that they could not have in life.
I will always remember her and as always I will move on. Tonight, however, I will keep my thoughts of her close.
It is the least I could do...
Carry on.
XOXO
Friday, November 4, 2011
Halloween and Hospitals
Sorry its been a little while my dears. I was caught up with and then recovering from Halloween.
You know how it goes. Went to a couple clubs a few parties with Melissa and then we decided we should trick or treat. She's such a silly girl sometimes but it was fun none the less.
I broke off the horns and filed them down. I decided I was tired of covering them up.
Anyways, haven't had any dreams that were out of the ordinary. I've been trying to remember what I saw but I can't really decipher it. Its all very confusing. I would like to thank A. Lucia Cat for her help in deciphering.
Yesterday, Melissa was at the hospital. She's in wonderful health and not sick at all. She was merely visiting a family member. I gave her a ride and decided to wait for her if she needed something. It reminded me of how much I hate hospitals.
Well mostly I don't enjoy being around sick people. The girl I was sitting next to was quite peculiar. She had multi-colored hair and a bad cough. Her eye was also blackened and she had a split lip. I offered her a cough drop and she turned it down. It seemed as though she had lost her voice. I'm now thankful its very hard for me to get sick.
Anyways, Melissa's family seems fine as does Melissa. She seems to be in better spirits than last time. No signs of the faceless one as of late. No threats or anything. Been fairly quiet.
I've been talking to Hylocereus and her partner on and off about the coded posts. We haven't beenable to break the cipher but I'm not ready to just give up.
Anyways, thought I should keep you all up to date.
Carry on,
XOXO
You know how it goes. Went to a couple clubs a few parties with Melissa and then we decided we should trick or treat. She's such a silly girl sometimes but it was fun none the less.
I broke off the horns and filed them down. I decided I was tired of covering them up.
Anyways, haven't had any dreams that were out of the ordinary. I've been trying to remember what I saw but I can't really decipher it. Its all very confusing. I would like to thank A. Lucia Cat for her help in deciphering.
Yesterday, Melissa was at the hospital. She's in wonderful health and not sick at all. She was merely visiting a family member. I gave her a ride and decided to wait for her if she needed something. It reminded me of how much I hate hospitals.
Well mostly I don't enjoy being around sick people. The girl I was sitting next to was quite peculiar. She had multi-colored hair and a bad cough. Her eye was also blackened and she had a split lip. I offered her a cough drop and she turned it down. It seemed as though she had lost her voice. I'm now thankful its very hard for me to get sick.
Anyways, Melissa's family seems fine as does Melissa. She seems to be in better spirits than last time. No signs of the faceless one as of late. No threats or anything. Been fairly quiet.
I've been talking to Hylocereus and her partner on and off about the coded posts. We haven't beenable to break the cipher but I'm not ready to just give up.
Anyways, thought I should keep you all up to date.
Carry on,
XOXO
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Nightmares and fever dreams
I've had a strange bout of insomnia and strange dreamy things as of late. I keep having dreams I can't remember that I wake up in cold sweats and starts from and up until now I had no idea why this was happening. I'd end up simply watching infomercials and stalking blogs in the wee hours of the morning.
Well something strange happened...
I was heading out to meet up with Melissa for ice cream at midnight when I walked passed Central Park. I glanced over at it. The leaves are rouging themselves up and its all very lovely looking when I noticed that distinct elongated silhouette amongst the trees.
The faceless one's presence does not affect me like normal humans because I am not human nor am I that normal. My mind is structured in a way that it cannot just burrow in. This does not mean I'm not susceptible to its disturbing ways of twisting perceptions though. We usually view each-other as simply two entities cohabiting the same realm. We do not want the same things and therefore we do not usually clash.
I felt it reach out and touch the edge of my mind and it pulled forth a memory. The memory of the dream I've been having the past couple days. I took a moment to collect myself and by the time I focused back on where it had been it was gone.
Said nightmare is strange. Its cloudy and hard to perceive...
I'm young again. My legs are short. I'm fast though despite this. I'm running along an enclosed and black place heading for a single luminous light. I can see the yellow and golden light hitting a few structures but I can't make them out. As I run I feel my legs rush against foliage and rocks. Sometimes I stumble but I keep going. I have to. And then I start feeling the nails. The nails dig into me. It feels like hundreds of hands scraping and scratching against me with thier nails. Tearing at my skin and my clothes. I can't stop though. I have to keep running. I have to. They slow me down but I managed to get to the light. Its bright and bewildering and I turn away from it and look back and then...
I can't remember.
I can't.
It was horrifying though whatever I saw. So much so I can't remember it and even the remnants of the terror I felt then wake me and tear me from sleep.
I hope I can remember that... It brings up some things I have not addressed. I don't remember most of my childhood nor how my species became so small in population.
I think I'll try and figure these out soon, as well as why the faceless one went out of its way to stir up this dream or memory.
I'm sure things will fall into place as time goes on.
As always, carry on.
XOXO
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Cryptic Frustration
Well well well, looks like we've got some cryptic and frustrating fun going on here...
Here is the original coded message in Base 64: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And here it is decoded:
J sfc th apw. J qps vu amj. T kvml tacsnn aob lzy ximj ssns mz fzky fcim evepuhf evr xosjo.
W nn tic emebnu mq huf sfjq rrttssnhvog syns. V bm ufp arnosw vsrqes mq huf lpqe bnnet mq huf hppysq dhjjofro og Zlplmoo.
Rpoejnh clqu pticc zvnb gpza yjmc qeisgioe zie ticjtbtt’ fmcdv qpwo mfh tvlmceg nod scgsyjnh gy huf ffcwwah og mff yjvfq plgfnegyu.
V bm ufp ubmdfl pmre pbplgvue. Ufp sifr xyyrrsioe, pjrs sfycqujnh, cgse naebpbre kfcase.
J wjjw vnwe jr. T kvml iygs giau dwcjfr. Uflh smoxcc hubt gjzkrsticwwyzticwwyzticwwyztiyeuvsl’tfpoeu
Ticwwyzlfyoggpbbzjzboticwwyzlfyoggpbbzjzbo
Wf utzy iawc zie Cacwwca. J wjjw vnwe nw Moozlpl.
Jch ximj ssns mz acm. Lpu xgwz xoox kj bnne, blo mbv wjjw yapw jr hsym.
How curious. I can hear their cries as this one runs their fingertips over my petals.
This one is a strange one.
I can hear this one begging now. I can hear a part of them struggling:
Pleasehelpme
Someone pleasestopme
Ithurtsitsdigginginitsclaws
I’mblind
Findthekeytomysight
Well... that is certainly unsettling. I believe a certain other blog got a similar post like this...
It looks like I will have to get in contact with them.
Here is the original coded message in Base 64: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And here it is decoded:
J sfc th apw. J qps vu amj. T kvml tacsnn aob lzy ximj ssns mz fzky fcim evepuhf evr xosjo.
W nn tic emebnu mq huf sfjq rrttssnhvog syns. V bm ufp arnosw vsrqes mq huf lpqe bnnet mq huf hppysq dhjjofro og Zlplmoo.
Rpoejnh clqu pticc zvnb gpza yjmc qeisgioe zie ticjtbtt’ fmcdv qpwo mfh tvlmceg nod scgsyjnh gy huf ffcwwah og mff yjvfq plgfnegyu.
V bm ufp ubmdfl pmre pbplgvue. Ufp sifr xyyrrsioe, pjrs sfycqujnh, cgse naebpbre kfcase.
J wjjw vnwe jr. T kvml iygs giau dwcjfr. Uflh smoxcc hubt gjzkrsticwwyzticwwyzticwwyztiyeuvsl’tfpoeu
Ticwwyzlfyoggpbbzjzboticwwyzlfyoggpbbzjzbo
Wf utzy iawc zie Cacwwca. J wjjw vnwe nw Moozlpl.
Jch ximj ssns mz acm. Lpu xgwz xoox kj bnne, blo mbv wjjw yapw jr hsym.
How curious. I can hear their cries as this one runs their fingertips over my petals.
This one is a strange one.
I can hear this one begging now. I can hear a part of them struggling:
Pleasehelpme
Someone pleasestopme
Ithurtsitsdigginginitsclaws
I’mblind
Findthekeytomysight
Well... that is certainly unsettling. I believe a certain other blog got a similar post like this...
It looks like I will have to get in contact with them.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
A Crunch
Melissa showed up at my home the other night bruised and battered. I asked her who had done this to her. She responded by saying it was a proxy. Someone who wanted to intimidate her back into the service of the faceless one. I gave her my first aid kit and asked her for a description.
He was traveling with two women and was wearing a green sweatshirt with an operator symbol stitched onto the back and shoulders. Typical. I asked her where she had been when it happened. She told me and then told me she had given him a slit lip and a black eye fighting back. Then, much to her protests, I left and followed their footsteps.
I used to be a hunter you know? Its just what we had to do to survive. So finding a man laughing loudly with a split lip and black eye and two women was not hard. On the way I grabbed a claw hammer from a construction sight and followed them till they turned a corner. When I looked he was in an alley way harassing someone else.
I grabbed one of the women and threw her into a dumpster and shut it. The other scampered away. He turned too look at me but I grabbed him by his hood and made him. Before he could react, I pinned his hand onto the wall and smashed his thumb with the hammer.
Crunch.
He let out a yell and I moved onto his index finger.
Another.
Then after that each of his other fingers until they were twisted and deformed.
A break. A snap. A wet crack.
He was whimpering when I flipped the hammer in my hand so I was holding the head in my hand and I smashed it into his face then grabbed his jaw. I drew close and muttered to him.
"You go near the delivery girl again..." and I held up the claw end so he could see it clearly. "I'll take out each of your eyes with this."
Then I hit him again with the blunt end and then left the alley way. I've never felt so livid in my life. Not even when I was wronged in the past did I feel that angry. It felt good though, to make sure Melissa would be safe from at least one more person.
I understand that proxies are not normally this brutal but he was a thug and someone needed to silence him. He came near my friend so he had to pay the price. I hope any, proxy or not, understand that.
If not. Just take a look at that man's fingers.
They look like a piece of modern sculpture now.
Melissa is fine now though. Just a few bumps and bruises that were easily remedied with some band-aids and aspirin as well as some slightly burnt cookies. She seemed grateful despite that. And I was mostly happy to see the smile on her face return.
Anyways, as always.
Carry on.
XOXO
He was traveling with two women and was wearing a green sweatshirt with an operator symbol stitched onto the back and shoulders. Typical. I asked her where she had been when it happened. She told me and then told me she had given him a slit lip and a black eye fighting back. Then, much to her protests, I left and followed their footsteps.
I used to be a hunter you know? Its just what we had to do to survive. So finding a man laughing loudly with a split lip and black eye and two women was not hard. On the way I grabbed a claw hammer from a construction sight and followed them till they turned a corner. When I looked he was in an alley way harassing someone else.
I grabbed one of the women and threw her into a dumpster and shut it. The other scampered away. He turned too look at me but I grabbed him by his hood and made him. Before he could react, I pinned his hand onto the wall and smashed his thumb with the hammer.
Crunch.
He let out a yell and I moved onto his index finger.
Another.
Then after that each of his other fingers until they were twisted and deformed.
A break. A snap. A wet crack.
He was whimpering when I flipped the hammer in my hand so I was holding the head in my hand and I smashed it into his face then grabbed his jaw. I drew close and muttered to him.
"You go near the delivery girl again..." and I held up the claw end so he could see it clearly. "I'll take out each of your eyes with this."
Then I hit him again with the blunt end and then left the alley way. I've never felt so livid in my life. Not even when I was wronged in the past did I feel that angry. It felt good though, to make sure Melissa would be safe from at least one more person.
I understand that proxies are not normally this brutal but he was a thug and someone needed to silence him. He came near my friend so he had to pay the price. I hope any, proxy or not, understand that.
If not. Just take a look at that man's fingers.
They look like a piece of modern sculpture now.
Melissa is fine now though. Just a few bumps and bruises that were easily remedied with some band-aids and aspirin as well as some slightly burnt cookies. She seemed grateful despite that. And I was mostly happy to see the smile on her face return.
Anyways, as always.
Carry on.
XOXO
Sunday, September 11, 2011
All that Glitters Is Goooold
Hmm... not much to report in the past few days. Mostly just relaxing. Writing down my thoughts. Reading. Having book fights with Melissa.
By the way those are fun but not very safe. Just in case any of you children wanted to have one.
Anyways, Melissa's been hanging around more, because, and I quote, "You turn into a sad panda when no one is around. All you do is curl up and eat."
Okay so that is pretty true actually. I have been feeling a bit lonely since Jessie left. Melissa's been nice enough to fill the gap though. She even brings me food sometimes.
Also she likes old movies. Which I thoroughly enjoy. I've also been weaning her into horror movies as of late. Though, there is enough horror in her life. She seems to enjoy the horribly made ones. I can't argue I don't enjoy watching them and adding commentary on every terribly put together scene that comes up.
Melissa's been acting a little strange as of late... a little less spunky. I'm not sure why. I haven't asked yet. But I think, perhaps, its her condition improving some. The school year as also started up a new semester.
Poor girl, she works so hard, and all so that we're proud of her. Well I certainly am.
Anyways, right now I'm just relaxing and waiting. Pretty content with things.
As always, Carry on.
XOXO
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Rhyme Of The Ancient Mariner's Napkin Notes
You know what I love?
When I remember things.
Ahaha I remember now. I remember many many things now.
I will explain these later at the appropriate time.
Otherwise I have some people to talk to. I have old flames I need to quell before I can move on with things. A sort of goal to meet. A prize to obtain, if you will. And I hope it will be satisfying.
Hitting up bars just isn't doing it for me anymore, if you haven't noticed. Its just boring now. I need more than just a normal person to satiate me. Its just not the same. So I guess I should kill two birds with one stone and send out a proposition while I'm still in the mood.
I believe Sellers and I should get into contact with each other. I believe I have something... well actually a few things you would want, darling. Information and lets say... company.
So whenever you can, no rush, I suggest you stop by New York and pay me a visit so we can get to know each other a little better and hopefully get a little help with your predicament.
Anyways...
Carry on
XOXO
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Sad Face
So Jessie left today. Poor girl, she's been so wonderful.
She made me cookies that I'm eating right now on my floor watching kitten videos.
Jessie's done so good and I'm happy to see her smiling more. I can only wish her the best on her travels. She's been wonderful.
Jessie you are welcome to come back any time you need to unless I am otherwise indisposed.
It's strange you know? I have to kill humans to survive. I have to steal their lives away and yet I cannot live without them. I need them to not feel alone. Feeling alone is my worst feeling. I feel like a gerbil and if I get lonely I'll die or something.
I'm going to go out tonight and trying to remember things. Trying to not feel sick when I looking in their eyes.
Their eyes are so empty. Those men and women.
But I need this. I need something. Even if it hurts I need to feel like there is someone around.
I don't know what I'm looking for anymore. I need something more. I need someone more.
But...
We will see if I will find that.
For now having friends like Jessie and Melissa is enough.
Carry On.
XOXO
She made me cookies that I'm eating right now on my floor watching kitten videos.
Jessie's done so good and I'm happy to see her smiling more. I can only wish her the best on her travels. She's been wonderful.
Jessie you are welcome to come back any time you need to unless I am otherwise indisposed.
It's strange you know? I have to kill humans to survive. I have to steal their lives away and yet I cannot live without them. I need them to not feel alone. Feeling alone is my worst feeling. I feel like a gerbil and if I get lonely I'll die or something.
I'm going to go out tonight and trying to remember things. Trying to not feel sick when I looking in their eyes.
Their eyes are so empty. Those men and women.
But I need this. I need something. Even if it hurts I need to feel like there is someone around.
I don't know what I'm looking for anymore. I need something more. I need someone more.
But...
We will see if I will find that.
For now having friends like Jessie and Melissa is enough.
Carry On.
XOXO
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Ohmygawd I love you rum
Heee oh rum. Rum rum ruuum.
Oh man Jessie says I shouldnt post but I wanna. So I am. What now huh?
Sorry sorry I love you, Jessie. Love love love. Wanna know who else I...
well not love but there's someone else I really like. Wanna know? Eh? Eeeeh? Well too bad. I'm not tellin you.
:P
Oh man I wish hethey were here. The things I would do tothim. ahaha oh dear. Sometimes i wonderabout myself oh wellll
I lov eyou guys.
Aaaugh oh man. I would fuck you in a heart beat
heeee
Anywaaays. At least I'm happy riiight? Jessie's a bit better hmmm. Thats good. she's so sweet so kind
such agood girl. I only hope I am making her hapy
Anyways.
Time for me to sleep. Sleepety sleeep
carry On
XOXo
Oh man Jessie says I shouldnt post but I wanna. So I am. What now huh?
Sorry sorry I love you, Jessie. Love love love. Wanna know who else I...
well not love but there's someone else I really like. Wanna know? Eh? Eeeeh? Well too bad. I'm not tellin you.
:P
Oh man I wish hethey were here. The things I would do tothim. ahaha oh dear. Sometimes i wonderabout myself oh wellll
I lov eyou guys.
Aaaugh oh man. I would fuck you in a heart beat
heeee
Anywaaays. At least I'm happy riiight? Jessie's a bit better hmmm. Thats good. she's so sweet so kind
such agood girl. I only hope I am making her hapy
Anyways.
Time for me to sleep. Sleepety sleeep
carry On
XOXo
Sunday, August 28, 2011
A House Guest
I have have lovely house guest over now so there will be no notes for a little while while I take care of her.
Jessie's been through a lot. Poor girl.
I hope she does enjoy herself while here. I'm going to try my best to cheer her up. If anyone deserves it, it's her. It going to be hard though but she's determined and I think that is wonderful...
So I'm going to keep her safe while she's here and make sure she leaves here feeling better than when she arrived.
It's the least I could do for someone so kind.
As always, Carry on.
XOXO
Jessie's been through a lot. Poor girl.
I hope she does enjoy herself while here. I'm going to try my best to cheer her up. If anyone deserves it, it's her. It going to be hard though but she's determined and I think that is wonderful...
So I'm going to keep her safe while she's here and make sure she leaves here feeling better than when she arrived.
It's the least I could do for someone so kind.
As always, Carry on.
XOXO
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Notes
Fuck everything.
I decided to get creative and write down as many languages I knew the word 'fuck' in. (Yes 'frak' is a Battlestar Galactica reference. Don't you look at me like that. It was a good show.)
I can't stand it anymore. I can't fucking take this.
There's fucking nothing. Nothing about them anymore. Nothing makes me happy. I look at them and I feel nothing but sick, but when I look at their eyes
What am I looking for? What is it?
I don't know anymore. I don't know. I dont' know what I'm looking for. But I feel like I have a goal, but I don't know what it is.
But there's a memory attached to it. I am trying to find the significance in it. Trying to remember through all the wine and confusion and the sex. Fucking Greece. At least being part of Dionysus's cult was fun. Oooh yes I had some adventures back then...
Auugh my readers. Just ignore my minor meltdown. Its trivial. Its pointless...
I hope you are all doing well. Especially you Jessie, dear. You poor thing... I can only wish and hope and pray for you to be alright.
Carry on
XOXO
I decided to get creative and write down as many languages I knew the word 'fuck' in. (Yes 'frak' is a Battlestar Galactica reference. Don't you look at me like that. It was a good show.)
I can't stand it anymore. I can't fucking take this.
There's fucking nothing. Nothing about them anymore. Nothing makes me happy. I look at them and I feel nothing but sick, but when I look at their eyes
What am I looking for? What is it?
I don't know anymore. I don't know. I dont' know what I'm looking for. But I feel like I have a goal, but I don't know what it is.
But there's a memory attached to it. I am trying to find the significance in it. Trying to remember through all the wine and confusion and the sex. Fucking Greece. At least being part of Dionysus's cult was fun. Oooh yes I had some adventures back then...
Auugh my readers. Just ignore my minor meltdown. Its trivial. Its pointless...
I hope you are all doing well. Especially you Jessie, dear. You poor thing... I can only wish and hope and pray for you to be alright.
Carry on
XOXO
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
An Interview With A Delivery Girl
I finally sat down with the delivery girl, Melissa, that I see often and asked her some questions. She said her favorite color was purple and thus her text will be said color
How old are you?
I’m freshly turned 20. Just a week ago!
Do you have any family?
Yeah. I have my mom and my dad and a mess of cousins and aunts and uncles. My grandmamma passed away a few years ago though…
That’s a shame. Do you live with them at all?
Nope! I’m all on my own right now! Got a nice little apartment. They help me with rent and stuff but I also pay for a part of it.
Are you working or in school right now?
I’m doing both! I do classes during the day. I’m doing mostly general education right now. I’m not exactly sure what I want to go into but I like history a lot! I think it’d be fun.
And at night I do a lot of odd jobs. There are a couple restaurant I help clean up an close, the antique shop of course which you see me delivering for, and a paper route every couple of days.
How’d you come to work at the antiques shop?
My grandmother knew the owner and some antiques and books are really fragile, so they don’t like having postal companies deliver if they’re local. So they hired me. I’m pretty good at getting around the city really fast!
How many deliveries do you make a night?
Well I work periodically every Monday, Wednsday, and Friday I deliver and usually I end up in nearly every part of the city at some point when doing so. Sometimes I use the subway and sometimes I use… uh… other ways.
Otherways?
Oh uhm… I do this thing called uh. I think they call it free running or parkour… I was on the track team in high school and did really really good. Like, that’s how I got my scholarship to my school! Well I like it. It keeps me in shape and you get to see a lot of the city other people don’t.
What kinds of hobbies do you have?
Well I read a lot. I tried knitting but uhm… that didn’t work out. Ha ha…
What kinds of genres do you like?
Oh I love action, and adventure, and fantasy! Sometimes scifi! I really like stories with heroes! Its hard to find them in real life you know? Not a lot of theme exist…
Do you have a blog?
Nope! I’m too busy to maintain one unfortunately! I read them from time to time though.
How long have you read the blogs?
Only a couple months now. Another uh… affected person mentioned them. So I decided to go check them out. Its crazy what this has done to some people!
When did this all start for you?
I want to say… a year or two ago?
How did your first meeting with the faceless one happen?
I’m not sure what caused it… but a friend of mine was talking about a guy in a business suit stalking her. She was really scared! But then I started getting glimpses of him from time to time, finally one night I was heading downstairs for a midnight snack when I looked out one of our windows and there he was… just… standing there…
What kind of effects or symptoms did you have?
Oh uhm… well first I was just sick from time to time. I had a cough but it went away. Then eventually I got headaches and I started losing patches in my memory. I started to get really fatigued too. Like I kept having weird dreams about running around and doing stuff and I’d wake up sore and tired.
Eventually I found out what was happening…
And what was that?
He was taking control of me at night. Telling me to do stuff, run here, run there but then I started to break away from him and I did my own thing and it became so stressful that it created a split in my personality.
Go on…
So, there was the normal me during the day. And the me you’re talking to right now at night.
What’s the difference?
Me during the day is… well I feel so dead. Like…
I’m not sure. You’ll have to talk to her. Or me. I dunno its really confusing! We’re basically two sides of the same coin I guess…
I see well uhm… its alright. You don’t have to talk about it anymore. Thank you for speaking with me.
Oh! Its no problem! I don’t mind at all! It’s nice to talk to you. I see you all the time but uhm… you’re usually… busy…
Ahaha… yes sorry about that. I’m sure it makes you uncomfortable but uhm… That probably won’t happen as often.
Oh! That’s good! I mean uhm. Well not for you but uh I mean…
Its fine. Don’t worry yourself. I understand.
Thank you, Miss. Uhm…
Why do you get so many deliveries… if you don’t mind me asking?
I’m doing some research… I guess on myself you could say.
Oh uhm… okay?
It’s a crazy story. Sometime I’ll explain it to you alright?
Alright! That sounds fun! I’d love to hang out more!
I would as well.
Oh no! I got to go! I have another delivery!
That’s fine dear. Take care of yourself, Melissa.
Thank you Miss!
And then she just ran out the door in a flurry. Off to deliver another package to some other lonely soul.
She’s a nice kid… I’ll have to get a hold of her day self for an interview sometime.
I hope she does come around more. I could use some company that’s not some douche bag who I just had sex with.
So there you all go.
As usual, take care and carry on.
XOXO
How old are you?
I’m freshly turned 20. Just a week ago!
Do you have any family?
Yeah. I have my mom and my dad and a mess of cousins and aunts and uncles. My grandmamma passed away a few years ago though…
That’s a shame. Do you live with them at all?
Nope! I’m all on my own right now! Got a nice little apartment. They help me with rent and stuff but I also pay for a part of it.
Are you working or in school right now?
I’m doing both! I do classes during the day. I’m doing mostly general education right now. I’m not exactly sure what I want to go into but I like history a lot! I think it’d be fun.
And at night I do a lot of odd jobs. There are a couple restaurant I help clean up an close, the antique shop of course which you see me delivering for, and a paper route every couple of days.
How’d you come to work at the antiques shop?
My grandmother knew the owner and some antiques and books are really fragile, so they don’t like having postal companies deliver if they’re local. So they hired me. I’m pretty good at getting around the city really fast!
How many deliveries do you make a night?
Well I work periodically every Monday, Wednsday, and Friday I deliver and usually I end up in nearly every part of the city at some point when doing so. Sometimes I use the subway and sometimes I use… uh… other ways.
Otherways?
Oh uhm… I do this thing called uh. I think they call it free running or parkour… I was on the track team in high school and did really really good. Like, that’s how I got my scholarship to my school! Well I like it. It keeps me in shape and you get to see a lot of the city other people don’t.
What kinds of hobbies do you have?
Well I read a lot. I tried knitting but uhm… that didn’t work out. Ha ha…
What kinds of genres do you like?
Oh I love action, and adventure, and fantasy! Sometimes scifi! I really like stories with heroes! Its hard to find them in real life you know? Not a lot of theme exist…
Do you have a blog?
Nope! I’m too busy to maintain one unfortunately! I read them from time to time though.
How long have you read the blogs?
Only a couple months now. Another uh… affected person mentioned them. So I decided to go check them out. Its crazy what this has done to some people!
When did this all start for you?
I want to say… a year or two ago?
How did your first meeting with the faceless one happen?
I’m not sure what caused it… but a friend of mine was talking about a guy in a business suit stalking her. She was really scared! But then I started getting glimpses of him from time to time, finally one night I was heading downstairs for a midnight snack when I looked out one of our windows and there he was… just… standing there…
What kind of effects or symptoms did you have?
Oh uhm… well first I was just sick from time to time. I had a cough but it went away. Then eventually I got headaches and I started losing patches in my memory. I started to get really fatigued too. Like I kept having weird dreams about running around and doing stuff and I’d wake up sore and tired.
Eventually I found out what was happening…
And what was that?
He was taking control of me at night. Telling me to do stuff, run here, run there but then I started to break away from him and I did my own thing and it became so stressful that it created a split in my personality.
Go on…
So, there was the normal me during the day. And the me you’re talking to right now at night.
What’s the difference?
Me during the day is… well I feel so dead. Like…
I’m not sure. You’ll have to talk to her. Or me. I dunno its really confusing! We’re basically two sides of the same coin I guess…
I see well uhm… its alright. You don’t have to talk about it anymore. Thank you for speaking with me.
Oh! Its no problem! I don’t mind at all! It’s nice to talk to you. I see you all the time but uhm… you’re usually… busy…
Ahaha… yes sorry about that. I’m sure it makes you uncomfortable but uhm… That probably won’t happen as often.
Oh! That’s good! I mean uhm. Well not for you but uh I mean…
Its fine. Don’t worry yourself. I understand.
Thank you, Miss. Uhm…
Why do you get so many deliveries… if you don’t mind me asking?
I’m doing some research… I guess on myself you could say.
Oh uhm… okay?
It’s a crazy story. Sometime I’ll explain it to you alright?
Alright! That sounds fun! I’d love to hang out more!
I would as well.
Oh no! I got to go! I have another delivery!
That’s fine dear. Take care of yourself, Melissa.
Thank you Miss!
And then she just ran out the door in a flurry. Off to deliver another package to some other lonely soul.
She’s a nice kid… I’ll have to get a hold of her day self for an interview sometime.
I hope she does come around more. I could use some company that’s not some douche bag who I just had sex with.
So there you all go.
As usual, take care and carry on.
XOXO
Monday, August 22, 2011
Strange Things I Do At 1:30 AM
Like make garlic toast.
Yes that is what I am doing right now. I can't say why passed the fact I wanted garlic toast. Sometimes I just don't question this.
I'm sitting on my loft's kitchen floor in front of my oven waiting and watching.
These quiet moments that do occasionally come up, as strange as they are.
I love these odd quiet moments. They're a blessing among the usual fanfare of life.
Because life does odd things to people.
Sometimes bad things happen in life. Sometimes good things happen in life. And almost always, in both cases we linger for a bit, but we learn to move on.
Sometimes life hands us answers. They're in neat little packages. Tied up with equations and with bows of complicated theories. An amalgamation of letters and numbers that some how help us understand the universe better.
Sometimes life makes us chase the answers. Sometimes it makes us look for them high and low. Only to find they were simple. Like leaving your glasses next to your bed. Like looking for a hat when you're wearing it.
Sometimes life throws a multitude of things at us. It makes us run about. Feel like there's some meaning to our lives we're looking for that might not be there. It brings forth a bewildering ammount of questions without answers. A series of dances which we must do. Recipes we much make our lives out to fit. Sometimes it tells us to experiment and become that square peg that oddly fits into the round hole.
And then...
Sometimes life tells us to get three basic things; such as garlic salt, bread, and butter. Delicious comforting things, and put them together... and to sit down and just wait.
Sometimes life tells us to make garlic toast.
Sometimes life tells us to enjoy little things. To enjoy the quiet.
Sometimes, dear readers.
Life just isn't as bad as we make it out to be.
Sometimes,
Life is good.
Carry on.
XOXO
Yes that is what I am doing right now. I can't say why passed the fact I wanted garlic toast. Sometimes I just don't question this.
I'm sitting on my loft's kitchen floor in front of my oven waiting and watching.
These quiet moments that do occasionally come up, as strange as they are.
I love these odd quiet moments. They're a blessing among the usual fanfare of life.
Because life does odd things to people.
Sometimes bad things happen in life. Sometimes good things happen in life. And almost always, in both cases we linger for a bit, but we learn to move on.
Sometimes life hands us answers. They're in neat little packages. Tied up with equations and with bows of complicated theories. An amalgamation of letters and numbers that some how help us understand the universe better.
Sometimes life makes us chase the answers. Sometimes it makes us look for them high and low. Only to find they were simple. Like leaving your glasses next to your bed. Like looking for a hat when you're wearing it.
Sometimes life throws a multitude of things at us. It makes us run about. Feel like there's some meaning to our lives we're looking for that might not be there. It brings forth a bewildering ammount of questions without answers. A series of dances which we must do. Recipes we much make our lives out to fit. Sometimes it tells us to experiment and become that square peg that oddly fits into the round hole.
And then...
Sometimes life tells us to get three basic things; such as garlic salt, bread, and butter. Delicious comforting things, and put them together... and to sit down and just wait.
Sometimes life tells us to make garlic toast.
Sometimes life tells us to enjoy little things. To enjoy the quiet.
Sometimes, dear readers.
Life just isn't as bad as we make it out to be.
Sometimes,
Life is good.
Carry on.
XOXO
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Eric
Eric. Oh, Eric.
There are not many things I am proud of... nor things I've done that are good. But those two categories overlap when it comes to Eric. My son.
It was 1848 when I was in a hospital dying of the white plague in London in a hospital. I had just jumped a body into this one and it was already dying and passed my influence to turn the tides. A young noble lady was carted in next to me suddenly in a flurry of movement.
They people attending to her said her carriage had gone off of the bridge and into a boat. She some how survived, but was badly hurt. Her husband was dead. As people rushed about I jumped out of the dying body and went to her. She was distraught... and consumed with sorrow over her husband's passing. When people are in their states like this, injured both physically and mentally. Those are the easiest to jump into. So to end her misery I jumped into her.
I lived happily in her. Went to her husbands funeral. And when people thought she was acting differently they all chalked it up to her changing after her love died. But soon I began to feel ill again. I was afraid that I had passed on my illness from one body to another and that's when I found out something very surprising.
That woman was pregnant when I lept into her. And despite all the changes in the body the child survived, and finally on a snowy night on December 14th, my Eric was born. I had never taken care of a child before. I mean, I looked after them from time to time but raising one? I had no experience... I never even had a mother or father let alone been one myself.
So I taught him to be good. I taught him to love all those love him and treat him kindly and to treat those who would treat him wrong kindly as well. I taught him languages, listened to music with him, told him grand stories, and traveled with him.
I remember he had the funniest bunny teeth and the prettiest blue eyes you would have ever seen. And his hair! Oh it was so hard to comb...
Every moment I could, I devoted to him. My darling little boy. He never questioned me. Never pointed out my odd features save for once... He
He told me one day, when we were in Italy, looking at art... he said "Mommy, you have the most beautiful eyes." I told him he had the most beautiful eyes and kissed his forehead
My wonderful boy. I watched him grow up into a kind and gentle man. Into one with many friends and many who he loved and they loved him. He became a musician, playing in an orchestra. He played beautiful music for me.
Even after I lived out that body till it crumbled around me, I watched over him as he grew older. Never being able to tell him who I was. That I was alright. That I loved him dearly.
I was his best friend who played cello in the orchestra.
I was his wife's best bridge friend.
I was the maid who watched over his children
I was the man who helped him settle his wife's will
I was the nurse who held his hand as he died...
And as my boy faded away I couldn't even tell him his mother would be waiting for him. He told me my eyes reminded him of his mother and he was so happy to look into them as he passed. I could only tell him that she loved him as did everyone who came into his life and that everything he had done was selfless and kind.
Then he was gone... and I would never see him again.
I heard it once said that its like a stone in your pocket. You notice it at first, constantly almost, but as you go about things you begin to almost forget about it. It feels lighter and eventually you hardly notice it. Occasionally though... you have to reach back into your pocket, and you feel that weight all over again.
Eric... taught me a lot of things...
Sometimes..
I just
I just wish I didn't feel this human...
Do you all have this stone in your heart? Weighing you down?
How far can you run before the pain catches you?
There are not many things I am proud of... nor things I've done that are good. But those two categories overlap when it comes to Eric. My son.
It was 1848 when I was in a hospital dying of the white plague in London in a hospital. I had just jumped a body into this one and it was already dying and passed my influence to turn the tides. A young noble lady was carted in next to me suddenly in a flurry of movement.
They people attending to her said her carriage had gone off of the bridge and into a boat. She some how survived, but was badly hurt. Her husband was dead. As people rushed about I jumped out of the dying body and went to her. She was distraught... and consumed with sorrow over her husband's passing. When people are in their states like this, injured both physically and mentally. Those are the easiest to jump into. So to end her misery I jumped into her.
I lived happily in her. Went to her husbands funeral. And when people thought she was acting differently they all chalked it up to her changing after her love died. But soon I began to feel ill again. I was afraid that I had passed on my illness from one body to another and that's when I found out something very surprising.
That woman was pregnant when I lept into her. And despite all the changes in the body the child survived, and finally on a snowy night on December 14th, my Eric was born. I had never taken care of a child before. I mean, I looked after them from time to time but raising one? I had no experience... I never even had a mother or father let alone been one myself.
So I taught him to be good. I taught him to love all those love him and treat him kindly and to treat those who would treat him wrong kindly as well. I taught him languages, listened to music with him, told him grand stories, and traveled with him.
I remember he had the funniest bunny teeth and the prettiest blue eyes you would have ever seen. And his hair! Oh it was so hard to comb...
Every moment I could, I devoted to him. My darling little boy. He never questioned me. Never pointed out my odd features save for once... He
He told me one day, when we were in Italy, looking at art... he said "Mommy, you have the most beautiful eyes." I told him he had the most beautiful eyes and kissed his forehead
My wonderful boy. I watched him grow up into a kind and gentle man. Into one with many friends and many who he loved and they loved him. He became a musician, playing in an orchestra. He played beautiful music for me.
Even after I lived out that body till it crumbled around me, I watched over him as he grew older. Never being able to tell him who I was. That I was alright. That I loved him dearly.
I was his best friend who played cello in the orchestra.
I was his wife's best bridge friend.
I was the maid who watched over his children
I was the man who helped him settle his wife's will
I was the nurse who held his hand as he died...
And as my boy faded away I couldn't even tell him his mother would be waiting for him. He told me my eyes reminded him of his mother and he was so happy to look into them as he passed. I could only tell him that she loved him as did everyone who came into his life and that everything he had done was selfless and kind.
Then he was gone... and I would never see him again.
I heard it once said that its like a stone in your pocket. You notice it at first, constantly almost, but as you go about things you begin to almost forget about it. It feels lighter and eventually you hardly notice it. Occasionally though... you have to reach back into your pocket, and you feel that weight all over again.
Eric... taught me a lot of things...
Sometimes..
I just
I just wish I didn't feel this human...
Do you all have this stone in your heart? Weighing you down?
How far can you run before the pain catches you?
Thursday, August 18, 2011
MORE NOTES
Holy fuck. HOLY FUCK.
I got so blitzed out of my mind last night I didn't post my notes.
Oh wow... yeah... wow.. Okay lets take a look at these shall we?
I got so blitzed out of my mind last night I didn't post my notes.
Oh wow... yeah... wow.. Okay lets take a look at these shall we?
Okay so the cat seem significant if you believe it or not...
Not sure how or why it fits in but it does...
Oh wow I wrote sappy poetry again? Holy fuck I was really drunk... and probaby sad.
Lets see...
Oh. Eric.
Dear Eric...
I'll have to make a post about him later...
Uhm
Everybody take care of yourselves...
You're all very important to me.
Really, you are.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Finding Memories
A week ago I killed someone similar to me. I have to wonder... what do I really look like outside of a body? He looked like a spider, and he certainly did not go down well.
Yes I ate him. Its how the food chain works with us... also he was being a prick and rude to me. I wasn't going to have that.
And he punched me in the face...
AND BROKE MY FUCKING NOSE.
He also almost exposed me for what I am, and I can't have that. There are many organizations that would kill me or drag me into a dark room and poke and prod at me.
And he punched me in the face...
AND BROKE MY FUCKING NOSE.
He also almost exposed me for what I am, and I can't have that. There are many organizations that would kill me or drag me into a dark room and poke and prod at me.
Anyways, its come to my attention my memories are a bit scattered passed a couple hundred years ago. This includes what I look like outside of a body. I guess this is understandable though. Not many people remember their childhoods, but that doesn't mean I'm not curious about it.
I do occasionally yell Babylonian when angry... which can be awkward when people don't realize what you're calling them...
Anyways, right now I'm trying to remember things. Trying to find triggers to make me remember. Like yesterday, I spent most of the time reading books, looking at artifacts I get delivered.
However I'm usually despondent after a day of nothing and end up going to the bar and drinking. Which is about what I'm going to do in a few minutes.
That girl I mentioned before, who's full of energy, she often delivers them to me from a shop. Her name's Melissa. She seems like a nice girl. Just very busy all of the time. Perhaps next time I'll interview her...
That'd be nice right?
Anyways time to go drown my sorrows in liquor and hope that something might come up in my notes...
Or I'll just ramble again...
Take good care of yourselves!
XOXO
Or I'll just ramble again...
Take good care of yourselves!
XOXO
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Notes on Napkins
Ahahaaa what a lovely night.
This man has horrible taste in decor but at least his password is as equally as bad. Heee using your own name. You are just ASKING to be hacked.
Anyways I managed to scan this bit of notes on a napkin I had at my side all day. I hope you do enjoy them.
I'm mostly leaving them here so if I throw it away I'll have some reference to what I was thinking today.
Dat Ass is self explanatory as is nom nom nom.
The teeth? Oh well that's because mine are falling out. It happens when I jump into a new body. I grew new stronger ones.
comment about the Gualish? Hmmmm
hmmm
mm
mmmmm
Fuck
I have to think about this.
This man has horrible taste in decor but at least his password is as equally as bad. Heee using your own name. You are just ASKING to be hacked.
Anyways I managed to scan this bit of notes on a napkin I had at my side all day. I hope you do enjoy them.
I'm mostly leaving them here so if I throw it away I'll have some reference to what I was thinking today.
Dat Ass is self explanatory as is nom nom nom.
The teeth? Oh well that's because mine are falling out. It happens when I jump into a new body. I grew new stronger ones.
comment about the Gualish? Hmmmm
hmmm
mm
mmmmm
Fuck
I have to think about this.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
An Introduction to Madness
Hello! Hello!
Readers, stalkers, strange people who decide to read the tales I tell. I'll just introduce myself
I go by the moniker Mistletoe or just Miss.
My original name is in a very old language and is a bit long for modern people to have patience for. You all move so fast. I met a girl the other day who seemed to just be made out of energy. Mentioned something about blogs of people involved in the supernatural.
So I decided that, being one of said supernaturals, that perhaps I should make my own blog? It'd be good for keeping track of my thoughts, which as of late have been come a bit scattered.
I am very old and one who lives within other's bodies. My earliest memory is in Babylon as a child. Or... as one with little knowledge of the world. After that my memories are sparse up until the 1600's. Egypt is punctuated with the occasional important event. Greece is merely a blur of wine, women, and men. Rome was only made of wars for me. Passed that I have mostly fond memories in the past 200 years or so.
I just hopped into a body that is... very nice lets say. A young woman. Probably... 24 I want to say. Very attractive. Perfect for me, and when I had come to her and whispered in her ear she gave up willingly and happy that I would make use of what she wanted to leave behind.
I don't particularly enjoy jumping. I love people. I love all of the people! Where would I be without people? Very bored in a wasteland that's what!
Right now I am spending my time in New York going to clubs, drinking a lot, and attempting to find something I may have lost...
What that is I am not sure but it weighs heavily on me. It worries me.
But anyways. This blog is mostly to keep together my thoughts as I have them and some of my memories as they return to me. Probably while intoxicated like I am right now! Haha! Rum! Delicious. Mmmmm....
Thank you for reading, darlings. If you don't believe me I hold nothing against you. Not many have believed me before when they have had no experience with the supernatural.
Ta-ta for now~
XOXO
Readers, stalkers, strange people who decide to read the tales I tell. I'll just introduce myself
I go by the moniker Mistletoe or just Miss.
My original name is in a very old language and is a bit long for modern people to have patience for. You all move so fast. I met a girl the other day who seemed to just be made out of energy. Mentioned something about blogs of people involved in the supernatural.
So I decided that, being one of said supernaturals, that perhaps I should make my own blog? It'd be good for keeping track of my thoughts, which as of late have been come a bit scattered.
I am very old and one who lives within other's bodies. My earliest memory is in Babylon as a child. Or... as one with little knowledge of the world. After that my memories are sparse up until the 1600's. Egypt is punctuated with the occasional important event. Greece is merely a blur of wine, women, and men. Rome was only made of wars for me. Passed that I have mostly fond memories in the past 200 years or so.
I just hopped into a body that is... very nice lets say. A young woman. Probably... 24 I want to say. Very attractive. Perfect for me, and when I had come to her and whispered in her ear she gave up willingly and happy that I would make use of what she wanted to leave behind.
I don't particularly enjoy jumping. I love people. I love all of the people! Where would I be without people? Very bored in a wasteland that's what!
Right now I am spending my time in New York going to clubs, drinking a lot, and attempting to find something I may have lost...
What that is I am not sure but it weighs heavily on me. It worries me.
But anyways. This blog is mostly to keep together my thoughts as I have them and some of my memories as they return to me. Probably while intoxicated like I am right now! Haha! Rum! Delicious. Mmmmm....
Thank you for reading, darlings. If you don't believe me I hold nothing against you. Not many have believed me before when they have had no experience with the supernatural.
Ta-ta for now~
XOXO
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